Sometimes I wish that I could just fly away. Just leave this world behind and stay there forever and a day. I get a feeling sometimes that I absolutely hate and it takes days to go away. But, sometimes I just want to stay. I plaster a smile on my face. I used to just drink my problems away. I thought I would never see better days. But, here you came a long and you understood me. Made me want to become a better me. You promised me and I promised you, something we shall never do. A friend that I will have until the very end. Your pain is my pain and I alway wish to help it go away. You hold my darkest secrets, you hold the key, you are the better half of me. You see things in me that no one else sees. I never want you to leave me. I love you deeply.

My little cousin who has autism is my life. I love him to death and would do anything for him.

He doesn't understand the world, he can barely speak a word.
He isn't the same I wish his life could change.

But, still my heart he warms, living without a care in this world.
Killing me with his charm he never does any harm.

Stuffted animals, grahmn crackers, and movies are all he needs to make his day complete.
His smile is oh so sweet.

His favorite place is the park. If he could he would stay until it's dark.
He doesn't give a damn about a thing all he wants to do is swing.

He's my inspiration to go on. When i'm weak his presence keeps me strong.
He didn't ask for this but, still he deals with it.

If only more people payed more attention to autism awarness....

"Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But, i'd rather be your moon so that I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun isn't around"

She hurts but you never know
outside her light glows, the pain...

She never shows.

Inside she just dies sometimes
wishing she wasn't alive, tired
of the sleepless nights...

Wishing life was right.

Her secrets she never tells
but to me she always reveals
the reasons for her quiteness...

Her shyness.

If I could I would and I know
I should help release her pain,
set her free...

So happy she can be.

She hurts but you never know

outside her light glows, the pain...

She never shows.

Expect-Great

A fiery demon within my soul
never does it go away, never
does it let go; burns so deep,
its the fuel within me
Passion

Keeps me alive and never does
it die; never does it fail, tougher
than nails, makes me fight until
the end, never giving in
Heart

Calm, cool, and collected
never rushing any actions
staying nice and smooth
trying to make the right moves
Poise

Trust in me and i'll trust in you
confidence in one another and
we can come together, become
much better, never a doubter
Faith

Always wanting to win, going to
fight until the end, a fiery passion
that burns within the heart, having
poise from the start. Unquestionable
faith, going to win this race, coming
in first place.

Expect-Great

You

Without you my life is incomplete.
You are the wind beneath my wings and the ground below my feet.
You are the light that guides me when its dark and I never want to be apart, apart from you because you are my heart.
The heart that keeps me alive.
The heart that makes my sunshine.
The heart that makes me,me.

I have come to the conclusion that I have major anger problems. It is so rediculous. Maybe I should get it checked out or something. One minute I'm fine and the next something just sets me off. Most of the time it is the smallest things that set me off. Smh.

Blah

I guess I should be used to it. Being let down that is. I mean its been happening since I was born . So I mean I should be used to it right? I hate getting my hopes up tthinking something is going to work out all fine and dandy to be let down to some bullshit excuse. But, I'm told thats life. All I can do is to learn from it and thats true. I just can't stand it. Then I'm expected to act nice like its fine right? Wrong. You will never learn but, it's fine. Next year I will be eighteen then off to college. It's just somethings parents are supposed to do because they are parents. But, its fine; I'm fine and life goes on.