Sometimes I wish that I could just fly away. Just leave this world behind and stay there forever and a day. I get a feeling sometimes that I absolutely hate and it takes days to go away. But, sometimes I just want to stay. I plaster a smile on my face. I used to just drink my problems away. I thought I would never see better days. But, here you came a long and you understood me. Made me want to become a better me. You promised me and I promised you, something we shall never do. A friend that I will have until the very end. Your pain is my pain and I alway wish to help it go away. You hold my darkest secrets, you hold the key, you are the better half of me. You see things in me that no one else sees. I never want you to leave me. I love you deeply.

My little cousin who has autism is my life. I love him to death and would do anything for him.

He doesn't understand the world, he can barely speak a word.
He isn't the same I wish his life could change.

But, still my heart he warms, living without a care in this world.
Killing me with his charm he never does any harm.

Stuffted animals, grahmn crackers, and movies are all he needs to make his day complete.
His smile is oh so sweet.

His favorite place is the park. If he could he would stay until it's dark.
He doesn't give a damn about a thing all he wants to do is swing.

He's my inspiration to go on. When i'm weak his presence keeps me strong.
He didn't ask for this but, still he deals with it.

If only more people payed more attention to autism awarness....

"Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But, i'd rather be your moon so that I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun isn't around"

She hurts but you never know
outside her light glows, the pain...

She never shows.

Inside she just dies sometimes
wishing she wasn't alive, tired
of the sleepless nights...

Wishing life was right.

Her secrets she never tells
but to me she always reveals
the reasons for her quiteness...

Her shyness.

If I could I would and I know
I should help release her pain,
set her free...

So happy she can be.

She hurts but you never know

outside her light glows, the pain...

She never shows.

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A fiery demon within my soul
never does it go away, never
does it let go; burns so deep,
its the fuel within me
Passion

Keeps me alive and never does
it die; never does it fail, tougher
than nails, makes me fight until
the end, never giving in
Heart

Calm, cool, and collected
never rushing any actions
staying nice and smooth
trying to make the right moves
Poise

Trust in me and i'll trust in you
confidence in one another and
we can come together, become
much better, never a doubter
Faith

Always wanting to win, going to
fight until the end, a fiery passion
that burns within the heart, having
poise from the start. Unquestionable
faith, going to win this race, coming
in first place.

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You

Without you my life is incomplete.
You are the wind beneath my wings and the ground below my feet.
You are the light that guides me when its dark and I never want to be apart, apart from you because you are my heart.
The heart that keeps me alive.
The heart that makes my sunshine.
The heart that makes me,me.

I have come to the conclusion that I have major anger problems. It is so rediculous. Maybe I should get it checked out or something. One minute I'm fine and the next something just sets me off. Most of the time it is the smallest things that set me off. Smh.

Blah

I guess I should be used to it. Being let down that is. I mean its been happening since I was born . So I mean I should be used to it right? I hate getting my hopes up tthinking something is going to work out all fine and dandy to be let down to some bullshit excuse. But, I'm told thats life. All I can do is to learn from it and thats true. I just can't stand it. Then I'm expected to act nice like its fine right? Wrong. You will never learn but, it's fine. Next year I will be eighteen then off to college. It's just somethings parents are supposed to do because they are parents. But, its fine; I'm fine and life goes on.

Young Allie: [lying in the middle of the street] What happens if a car comes?

Young Noah: We die.

I want to lay out in the middle of my street on a nice summer evenining. Just me and someone else. Just laying there, talking, and staring at the clouds as the sun starts to set and the clouds change pretty colors. Sort of like in the notebook when they laid out in the middle of the street. I don’t know why but, I just do. I think it would be a nice thing to do. Just laying there with no worries. I mean at least until a car comes. I know it sounds kind of weird. But, oh well. I guess I will add that on my list of things to do this summer.

A summer long ago. People I used to know. Memories that won't fade.

I want to press rewind.
Go back in time.
Basically to the summer time.
When the world was mine.
All the sun did was shine.
All I did was smile.
Now I get this feeling in my stomach.
Whenever I think of it.
Time went so fast and just took it.
From right under my feet.
Now I'm bitter sweet.
I only want to sleep.
Only then does all the memories come back to me clearly.

I think of a summer long ago. People I used to know. Memories that won't fade.

Seniors Last Day...

Tomorrow is our seniors last day of school. I know I'm going to bust out in tears. I don't know what I am going to do with out certian people being there anymore. The more I think about it the sadder I get. I am going to miss some of these people so much. Especially Britt. Even though we just met this year I feel like we have known each other for the longest. We have countless memories and numerous inside jokes. I talk to her about everything she is like a big sister I have never had. When she is gone I am not going to have anyone to walk to third hour, lunch , fifth hour, and seventh hour with. Oh and don't forget the usual "visits" outside after school. I can't leave Lauren out. She was one of the first people I met there back in the ninth grade. I was her backspot and she was my flyer. She is like a big sister to me too and I can tell her everything as well. Its alot of other people I am going to miss as well such as Lyndzie, Domo, Ashleigh, and many more. But, man time flies by so fast. Next year will be my last year. I'm kind of tearing up as I write this now. I'm not ready for it all to end.

Hmph.

I don't think I am ready to face reality yet.

I sometimes want to be | Forever Young |

"Only pure love can calm the noise. Cause baby when we give pure love. Pure love will never come back to us void. Because nothing, nothing, should come between us. Trust in me"

-Janet Jackson "Nothing"

"No one can promise they will never hurt you because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time spent together is worth the pain in the end."

Hiii.

I'm  Kyra

I'm only me and that's all I can be. I'm a seventeen year old girl wrapped up in this world. I have a hard time trusting people and its only a few I do. I write my feelings out, a camera and a basketball make me complete, and fashion/shopping makes me happy. Some call me crazy, some call me weird but I am just me. I'm perfectly imperfect because I am constantly making mistakes, things irritate me, I am never satisfied with my self and I just try and make the most of things. Sometimes I am wrong and sometimes I am right. Sometimes I do things I later regret and sometimes I say things I don’t mean. But, hey thats life. Either you like me for me or you dont. Simple as that. Enjoy. :)

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